I’m so very excited to be writing this story as it was not long ago that I was reading about all the amazing women and men on Ideal Bodies Online that had transformed their bodies and looked amazing. I was reading their stories eating Tim Tams and ice-cream and having to undo the buttons on my jeans because of my ever expanding muffin top!
After reading the stories, I would feel inspired, but then more depressed that I was never going to be like them! I would then eat more junk food.
I suffered with depression for many years and had unhealthy relationships. I achieved lots of goals that I set for myself whilst being depressed such as completing University and raising my daughter as a single mum, but could never seem to get my weight down. I would often think I was just supposed to be fat and that I should just be happy with being fat. Eating was like an addiction for me. At my worst I would eat a 2 litre tub of ice-cream and a family block of chocolate every day without fail. I tried most of the diets and programs out there to lose weight. I failed at most of them, which would only increase my feelings of failure and worthlessness. I even considered going to over eaters anonymous at one stage!
I got liposuction in 2006 which was horrible, but the weight just piled right back on!
My low point was when all my size 16 clothes were getting tighter and when I went shopping for more, size 16 didn’t fit. Size 18 fit. Size 18, OMG I thought. I actually thought that the clothing shops were making clothes smaller these days! I did not realise how big I was. No one really told me I was fat or made a big deal of it. I was 104kg.
So I decided that if I was going to lose weight, I needed to do it for me and get my head straight first. I came across Ideal Bodies Online when I read a Body Transformation Story in New You magazine. I went to the website and couldn’t believe my eyes. There were fat people like me who were now skinny and looked happy and healthy. I contacted Sue and signed up for a Body Makeover Program. I joined a gym and made a commitment to the program and following it to a ‘T’. I also read lots of fat loss stories every day and tried to change my mindset to “yes I know I am fat, but I don’t have to be and I am changing it right now”. With Sue’s help, I stopped focusing on all the naughty things that I couldn’t have, and started focusing on how lucky I was to be able to have all these other yummy healthy foods.
After a few days of eating clean, I was out of my junk food coma and could think straight. I felt energised and motivated.
About 8 weeks into the program I had lost 10kg, but I found out I was pregnant! I ended up separating from my husband, having horrible morning sickness, financial problems and became homeless for a little while. It was definitely one of the lowest periods in my life. However with the skills I had learnt I decided that this would just be a temporary imposition and I would continue my weight loss journey after my baby was born. I got a house, a job and was eating very healthy. I only put on 14kg which was amazing considering I put on 20kg with my daughter.
When my son was about 4 months old I joined a gym and went 6 days a week. He went to the crèche and I used the program I had from Ideal Bodies Online before I was pregnant. In 2010 I was confident in my ability to motivate myself and I obtained a personalised program but without online support. I stuck to the program and ended up losing the remainder of the weight. I got down to 75kg and then I returned to work.
Working full time has made it difficult to lose the last 5kg. I also study part time online and have two children on my own. I have been able to maintain my weight for over 2 years now and am the happiest I have ever been in my life. I still often think like a fat person and I still relate to overweight people as I have been there.
My goal is to get to 70kg and have a six pack and a muscular bottom! I will definitely get there, but it may a little while. My total mindset has changed. I believe that you must change your thinking before you are able to lose weight.
Susan’s tops tips are
- Commit to losing weight. It must be your very number one priority. If you can’t prioritise it then you will set yourself up for failure.
- Get a plan. Plan out your week before it even starts. Plan your meals, do your shopping, get all your groceries, note down the times you will train, ensure you have enough protein powder to last you, make sure all your workout gear is clean and accessible. If you have days were you are not motivated then all you have to do is follow the plan, no thinking required!
- You will lose motivation and want to stay in bed and eat junk food. When this happens you need to focus on what your goal is. You need to ask yourself, “is this action, behaviour etc. helping me to get closer to my goal?”
- Be aware of excuses for not exercising or poor eating. “It’s raining” or “its cold” or “I haven’t had chocolate in a month and I deserve it”.
- Be kind to yourself. You will stuff up and make mistakes. Acknowledge the mistake, take responsibility, identify what and why it happened and move on.
- Ignore unhelpful comments from others. My friends and family didn’t tell me I was fat, they told me that I was fine and didn’t need to lose weight. I had to ignore this and carry on with achieving my goal.