Monthly Archive for June, 2006

Our kitchen!

I’m sitting in a café doing a little bit of work, and having my 2nd short black of the day. I am very hungry! Due for a meal soon, and have my egg whites and beans sitting in the car. I eat at least half of my meals cold these days – don’t even notice anymore. I have discovered that I love green beans when I thought I hated them This is good news.

So, the countdown is on! 2 weeks as of tomorrow. I must say I’ve had a little bit of a rollercoaster ride the last few days. The question has been asked – why oh why do we do this to ourselves??? But, as always, another day, reveals a more positive me Today I feel great. I am getting very hungry but I can handle it. I CAN. I CAN. I had a ripper additional leg/cardio session today – I love this workout – it keeps me interested. Something that a treadmill workout does not do!! It’s all mental at this stage of the game. I have spoken to Di a couple of times in the past week which has been nice. If I didn’t know how things can pan out, and change quickly, I would have definitely given up by now. Oh yes, it has been tough. The 2nd to last week (ie this week coming) is very busy training-wise – 3 hours of every day (3 separate sessions) will be taken up with cardio, training and posing. I have tomorrow off which will be awesome, because I have a house inspection tomorrow. Tonight I am training back and shoulders, and abs.

I’m really looking forward to the last week and the depletion, and then carb up.

I am pretty much caught up with work which is GREAT. I feel on top of it. So, now I can just do the final finishing touches that need to be done – ie need to look for some jewelry to wear with each of my costumes, need to grab last minute items from supermarket, start to pack my bag, etc. I plan to practice my posing a lot over the next 2 weeks. I did a lot of posing in one of my workouts (between sets) last week and I was sore for DAYS. So, I need to do more to get my body accustomed to it.

I took pics for Richie this morning. Consensus is I have a lot more muscle than last time. This is true. I have had many people comment on this. I still have a bit of fine tuning to go, and I will be happy. I am waiting on my other suit from Jo – she was ‘blinging’ it up a bit for me, so I look forward to seeing that next week. Got my hairpieces in the mail – they are AWESOME, great length, great style and the colours are perfect. So, that is something!!! Michelle, I got my other package in the mail today – you know the one I mean Thanks for the other stuff you threw in, appreciated!! Now am waiting for the REAL package…I think that will be here in time so that is great. THANK YOU for working so hard to get that to me.

Had ‘lunch’ with Jode today – we haven’t caught up for awhile. So that was nice. I just drank coffee and smoked – yes you read right folks – and Jodie just had green tea! Yes, it’s my vice – I am a social smoker, but when I diet, I tend to do it a little more often. Richie thought it was funny, and he divulged his diet ‘vice’ to me also.

I did manage to do a spot of shopping the other day – love shopping when I fit into everything and everything looks good on me (if I do say so myself) I was peeved to see the jacket I bought about a month ago for $90, now on special for $30. So, I bought another one, in a different colour 2 pairs of pants, size XS – I took the S back, I’d ‘outgrown’ (or is that ‘ingrown’) it. A red dress, a little cropped cardy, 2 casual stretchy cropped cardy’s, a pair of shoes, and a handbag. Just a small spree My size 8 Rusty’s are swimming on me at the moment.

Anyway, must go eat, I am starting to feel a bit buzzy from all the black coffee.

thank goodness. So, the idealbodies address is fine to use now, thank you. Be back for a report one of these days!!

Just made a big post and it disappeared. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Thanks so much bloggers and readers for the motivating comments on my pic. It was lovely to read through them all I do believe I have ‘grown’ a bit, thanks to Richie steering me in the right direction in the off season – EATING and of course training very hard. With 3 and a bit weeks to go, I hope to see some further changes happening in this short space of time! Every day I get up and can see a little more muscle popping out, or a new vein or something, so that keeps me going I love the final few weeks – the ‘end’ is nigh, and I am focused.

I did it hard tonight for cardio, one foot in front of the other was what I was telling myself. I do a lot of ‘talking’ to myself when it gets a bit tough. I remember lots of motivational quotes that mean something to me – I think about them as I train or cardio, and just keep going until it’s done. I had to lie on the floor when I got home, I was feeling a bit light headed. I felt fine after I ate, and showered. It feels so good to get through these sessions when the body and mind are telling me otherwise. This sport would have to be 80-90% mental, especially in the pre contest phase. Damien ate a pizza in front of me last night, when I was ‘starving’. It smelled great and yeah it would be nice to have some but I am not in the least bit tempted. If I gave in that easily, what would be the point of pursuing this sport?

Anyway, this morning’s cardio was fantastic, an hour of the best. I really pushed it – by the time 35mins was up I was starting to struggle mentally. So, I cranked up the incline to 15, rested my hands on the bar (not holding just resting!) and closed my eyes. I walked with my eyes closed for the remaining time – if anyone could see me they would have thought I was mad! However, it made me focus, and relax at the same time.

Tomorrow is cardio, and chest, tris and calves in the evening. I send new pics to Richie tomorrow who will then plan out the next phase for me.

Did anyone happen to record Survivor tonight???? I am ‘spewing’ I forgot to record it!!!!! I would love a copy if someone out there did!!!

I still haven’t received my INBA tickets! I haven’t forgotten, all those who have paid. Will send them out as soon as I get them.

There is so much happening and I don’t have much spare time! I manage to get a few hours of work in each day if I am lucky! Thank goodness I have some great girls working for me!

Oh oh oh…our house! It’s going ahead, all so very exciting. Our kitchen is almost done! The silestone benchtops and splashbacks, and cupboards are in! All our doors are on, and our laundry cupboards and 2nd bathroom vanity. The vanity top in our ensuite is the wrong colour!! They put the same silestone as the kitchen! Black! So, lucky we are going there regularly to check things out. It is looking amazing, I just cannot wait to get in there!!!

Hope to check in again soon…

2 cardio sessions today. We got up and cleaned and tidied the house for the inspection, and I did one cardio before taking Rexy to mum’s. Mum and I then went to Gloria Jeans for a coffee and then did some grocery shopping. I then collected Rex from under the bed, and brought him home to ‘safety’. I had something to eat, did a bit of work, and then needed a sleep. I slept for about an hour. Woke, had my first black coffee for this prep, and then did my 2nd cardio. I have started to ask myself why I am doing a comp in the middle of winter!!! Usually I do October shows, so it’s starting to warm up a little by this stage. Posing in tiny costumes is not very fun when your bits are freezing.

I just finished my steak – yum, can have steak 3 x week instead of my salmon now so that was a nice change. I am missing my bigger protein portions!! Now cooking up my veggies and that will be it for the night.

I had someone email and ask how ‘selfish’ you really have to be in this sport. It truly is a ‘selfish’ sport. You just have to be, or you won’t make it. For instance, in the final 4 weeks, it gets really tough. Low calories, training 2-3 x day, always hungry, tired – you just don’t have the energy to DO anything much else but train, and you are constantly wanting to eat so you are always fighting the urge. You can’t wait to go to sleep so you don’t have to think about food Then you get up and do it all again the next day. I have certainly found there are easier days than others. But there are days that you have to fight with every fibre in your body. You can imagine all of the above if you are having a bad day ie ‘starving’, exhausted, stressed, cravings – how easily it would be to just say ‘this is way too hard’. You can’t go anywhere, even out for dinner, not only because you don’t know what you will get (even if you order plain fish and steamed veg), but because the temptation can be too much ie sitting waiting for your ‘specially prepared’ meal, watching others eat bread rolls and drinking wine while you are absolutely starving and drinking water. It’s no fun! So its much easier to become a hermit at this stage of prep and stay away from any temptation. I am sure Damien would love it if I didn’t do any more comps but of course he would never say that – he is supportive of my competing. We used to go out for dinner quite a bit, well that just doesn’t happen now and I know he misses that. As do I BUT, I love the discipline required – I know there are not many people that can muster the will and determination, the focus and committment, to see through a goal such as getting on stage. To accomplish this means so much, it is such a powerful feeling inside, to know I have not sucumbed to the ‘easy way out’. I’m not there yet, but I will be

Veggies are ready!